I think I am getting Church and God mixed up in my heart. I think perhaps I need to rethink what it means to be a member of the church. I need to rethink my role as a Christian in the local church. It's almost like being a 'good' member of the church, and being approved of by them is more important than spending time with God and building up my relationship with Him again. Or its like I think that in order to love God I must get deeply involved in the church straight away.
If I don't make God my first priority then I will end up burnt out as I was before. I think I need to learn to get a balance between loving God and building my relationship with Him, and my need to be involved in the local church. At the moment it is veering back to being tipped in favour of Church again. If there is a God and I have made a step of faith, by choosing to believe that there is one, then He must come first. It is God who gives me eternal life, not the church.
|Am I worshipping God or the church?|