But is my faith really faith when I have not looked at the negatives, questions and doubts about what I believe. If I have not experienced doubt is my faith really faith? Or is it just living the way I have been told to live by someone else.
I have just heard a lovely wise Catholic Priest talk about how the light can be more appreciated when you know the darkness. I think I am beginning to realise that for myself. Now I have experienced doubt, my faith, although very small at present, seems even more precious to me.
I read this on a friend's blog recently " I was once told ‘my boy, always preach your convictions not your questions’. But I had seen what convictions can do to a spirit and I lived by one truth alone; ‘treasure the questions’. Even in those days I was learning that certainty was the armour put on by those who had yet to gain the courage to live by faith." From The Churchless Sexton's Blog
|The light seems brighter after being |
in the darkenss
St Paul in his 2nd letter to the Corinthians says “We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed.” When I looked up perplex in the dictionary it said, “perplex-To confuse or trouble with uncertainty or doubt”. It seems to imply that Paul also had doubts and questions about life, God, and faith but still chose to believe.
It’s only a small beginning but I am beginning to see the value of questions and doubt. Living in darkness does make the light seem very bright but also very welcome.